Feeling hot, hot, hot !
Somewhat tongue in cheek I wrote prior to yesterday's latest debacle that anything less than a 5-0 defeat would be seen as improvement......never in my wildest nightmares did I envisage that we could go one worse !
Just when you think the club has hit rock bottom it finds new depths to take us to. I had already accepted it was going to get worse before ( and if ) it gets better. However, that I took to be the return to League 1 not that we would get our worse spanking in 32 years with a team playing without any passion. Coincidently that day 32 years ago was the day I got engaged and that particular love affair didn't end well, it seems that the one with my club is being sorely tested too !
I'm trying to imagine at what point I'd feel I'd no feelings towards CAFC. Given all the emotions, the memories, the connections, family history etc. throughout my life I can't envisage a time when I wouldn't be making the pilgrimage to S.E.7. I'm sure we all feel that but we're being greatly tested as I say.
Aside from yesterday's performance, news that Katrien and Richard Murray were absent yesterday only serves to further fan the flames ahead of next Saturday. I bet there's a few Addicks who wished they hadn't bothered going yesterday. They chose to do so and that's not because they're getting paid to do so although.......... !
What drew them to travel up to Hull yesterday will never be understood by our owners. They wouldn't grasp why I get a lump in my throat when Red, Red Robin is played at the start of games, why I cried when the players ran out when we returned to The Valley against Portsmouth, the pride I felt when my boys were mascots and certainly not when I felt a soppy sod the other day when getting emotional as Mull of Kintyre was playing in the background as I walked through the local shopping centre.
There's little left to be said on our current regime and the whole scenario. It's all been said by so many and continues to be said with each new low.
It's all going to end badly that is clear............let's just hope it all ends sooner rather than later and we can get on with restoring our club.